Oy.
It was Monday. Pretty much the first monday since everyone's school got out, which is pretty spectacular, I suppose. Plus I FINALLY got the internet back in my room, so I can go back to leaving my AIM on for hours on end, simply putting up away messages when I'm finished. Yes, making me happy is a fairly simple task.
However, I'm also pretty angry at myself. I NEED to talk to Lauren. Pretty badly. Before she starts to lose interest. And I really haven't gotten to all that much. There are several reasons for this.
The biggest reason would probably be... I'm afraid. I'm afraid to try to talk to her on the phone. I'm not a big phone person. There are a select few people I can talk to on the phone without the whole conversation de-evolving into a giant awkward pause. Terry. Anna. Zach. Danny. That's about it. I'm afraid if I try to call Lauren, we'll sit there in silence, and she'll think I just have nothing to say to her or something.
Reason number two: Long distance. I'm not completely sure, but my sister seems dead set on the (pseudo)fact that Lauren is technically long distance. So, that's sorta staved off any telephone conversations. Though, as soon as I get the 25 dollars Zach owes me (long story) I might be able to acquire a phone card, or something.
Reason number three: Maybe its ALREADY been too long. Maybe she's already lost interest. I saw her on Saturday, and, I dunno... maybe I'm barking up the wrong tree? Maybe she realized who exactly I actually am, and decided she really didn't like me after all? Maybe she never did to begin with? I don't know... I get nervous about this kinda stuff. Real nervous.
The more I think about it, the more I realize how much I really, really wanna get to know Lauren, and I'll be kicking myself for the rest of the eternity of the comsos if I let this slip through my fingers. So, here's YOUR assignment, dear reader! (Oo, an INTERACTIVE blog!) Your assignment, should you choose to accept it... no, wait, I'm not even giving you that option! You WILL accept it! Your assignment that, whether you want to or not, you WILL accept, is to pester ME as much as possible about calling Lauren, and talking to her about all this stuff! The whole relationship is at a standstill, and will probably stay that way, or dissintegrate, unless I make a move one way or another! So pester away! Send me obnoxious IMs! (GeneStarwind1984 is my AIM screen name) Email me with threats of physical harm! (GeneStarwind1984@hotmail.com be the email address) Call me a million times, over and over again!! (346-1609, if you don't know the number) Send letters! Come over here and physically force me to pick up the phone and dial the number! (1115 Quatto Hill is the address. Its in Collinsville, Illinois. Go to www.mapquest.com if you need driving directions. Do we see how serious I am about this?!) Whatever it takes!
Meanwhile, I'M gonna try to work up the courage myself. And I'm gonna be annoyed to all hell, if I actually AM able to call her myself, and THEN all these people start pestering me to do it, unaware that the deed has been done. But that is a risk I'm willing to take!
So wish me luck, ladies and gentlemen! And to those who've decided to aid me, I'm going to thank you ahead of time, and apologize in advance for some of the comments that may be exchanged!
Rock on, people.
It was Monday. Pretty much the first monday since everyone's school got out, which is pretty spectacular, I suppose. Plus I FINALLY got the internet back in my room, so I can go back to leaving my AIM on for hours on end, simply putting up away messages when I'm finished. Yes, making me happy is a fairly simple task.
However, I'm also pretty angry at myself. I NEED to talk to Lauren. Pretty badly. Before she starts to lose interest. And I really haven't gotten to all that much. There are several reasons for this.
The biggest reason would probably be... I'm afraid. I'm afraid to try to talk to her on the phone. I'm not a big phone person. There are a select few people I can talk to on the phone without the whole conversation de-evolving into a giant awkward pause. Terry. Anna. Zach. Danny. That's about it. I'm afraid if I try to call Lauren, we'll sit there in silence, and she'll think I just have nothing to say to her or something.
Reason number two: Long distance. I'm not completely sure, but my sister seems dead set on the (pseudo)fact that Lauren is technically long distance. So, that's sorta staved off any telephone conversations. Though, as soon as I get the 25 dollars Zach owes me (long story) I might be able to acquire a phone card, or something.
Reason number three: Maybe its ALREADY been too long. Maybe she's already lost interest. I saw her on Saturday, and, I dunno... maybe I'm barking up the wrong tree? Maybe she realized who exactly I actually am, and decided she really didn't like me after all? Maybe she never did to begin with? I don't know... I get nervous about this kinda stuff. Real nervous.
The more I think about it, the more I realize how much I really, really wanna get to know Lauren, and I'll be kicking myself for the rest of the eternity of the comsos if I let this slip through my fingers. So, here's YOUR assignment, dear reader! (Oo, an INTERACTIVE blog!) Your assignment, should you choose to accept it... no, wait, I'm not even giving you that option! You WILL accept it! Your assignment that, whether you want to or not, you WILL accept, is to pester ME as much as possible about calling Lauren, and talking to her about all this stuff! The whole relationship is at a standstill, and will probably stay that way, or dissintegrate, unless I make a move one way or another! So pester away! Send me obnoxious IMs! (GeneStarwind1984 is my AIM screen name) Email me with threats of physical harm! (GeneStarwind1984@hotmail.com be the email address) Call me a million times, over and over again!! (346-1609, if you don't know the number) Send letters! Come over here and physically force me to pick up the phone and dial the number! (1115 Quatto Hill is the address. Its in Collinsville, Illinois. Go to www.mapquest.com if you need driving directions. Do we see how serious I am about this?!) Whatever it takes!
Meanwhile, I'M gonna try to work up the courage myself. And I'm gonna be annoyed to all hell, if I actually AM able to call her myself, and THEN all these people start pestering me to do it, unaware that the deed has been done. But that is a risk I'm willing to take!
So wish me luck, ladies and gentlemen! And to those who've decided to aid me, I'm going to thank you ahead of time, and apologize in advance for some of the comments that may be exchanged!
Rock on, people.
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